HUGE TRIGGER ALERT
Hey, I've lived with it for twelve years and counting. I have a right to joke. It's like cheap therapy.
ALSO - Please! Understand that I am not a doctor, therapist, psychiatrist - I'm just a person dealing with PTSD. With that said - I CANNOT give advice.... I'm struggling just as much as you... I'm sorry if I do not respond to your questions asking for advice - the best advice I can give is see a professional - they saved my ass, so they can save yours.